Forging a New Path

Moving forward often requires mourning what you've left behind.

Sometimes you realize you’re not quite ready for that thing you’ve been fighting so hard to get.

Often right when you’re about to get it. 

Anyone else? Or just me? 

I have been working very hard to be divorced. For three long years. Divorce is hard work in the best of situations. Mine has been far from that. 

I thought I wanted to be divorced with every cell in my body. So why is it taking so bloody long? 

Don’t get me started on divorce court in this country. Or certain counties in the commonwealth of Pennsylvania. There are many reasons outside my control this divorce has taken years and many tens of thousands of dollars. To say nothing of my time, energy, pain, and suffering. 

As I see it, very little of the blame for this prolonged, painful divorce is mine to carry. 

And yet, part surely is.

How have I been resisting it? How do I feel now that it truly seems …