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Mixed Up and Backwards

Mixed Up and Backwards

Basically, me.

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Jeanette Brown
Sep 04, 2024
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I’m supposed to write about grief on Wednesdays and I can’t today because I am overflowing with gratitude.

I feel my brain healing after a lotta lotta grief and it makes me want to sing and dance and throw parties.

Like I literally joined a choir, started dancing, and am feeling my inner party girl resurface.

It is joy.

She has been away a long, long time.

My reunion with joy is some of the sweetest nectar I have ever sampled.

My grief-stricken mind can make it hard for me to open to joy. So fearful am I of more loss. I’ve had to close myself off to joy for a good long while. Because I couldn’t risk feeling it and having it snatched away from me. I couldn’t risk more loss. So I shut down joy.

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This protective armor kept me safe and helped me survive some excruciatingly painful sh!t. My nervous system knows what’s up. My nervous system guides me to do the t…

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